loffyglu: Hotaru from Sailor Moon looking nervous. (Nervous...)
2014-02-03 10:14 pm
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Worrying about stuff, I guess.

You know, I'm sometimes a little sad that I seem to get the most attached to people who seem so... well, detached.

Like, if they seem distant or uncaring, I have to keep reminding myself that they aren't and the fact that they don't show it/act in ways that suggest they don't care is just a part of who they are. Mostly because I happen to be super emotional and I have almost no qualms with showing it, but not everyone is like that.

But then I wonder if that's healthy. I wonder if people who are like that are really even healthy people to be around. I wonder if I'm being self-destructive by drawing myself to people like that and keeping them in my life. I can agonize all I want about whether they'd decide "fuck it all" at the drop of a hat, but at the end of the day, whose fault is it if I get hurt because they're just being who they are? Is it mine?

And then I have to wonder how I even latch onto these people in the first place. I'm happy with who I am, but if I were to meet myself, I really don't think we'd get along; I can't really handle someone who's as emotional as I am, I guess (and then I wonder how much of that is internalized misogyny, but that's another topic for another day). It'd be overwhelming for me. But can't I just find people who won't give me the cold shoulder?

Hah. Interesting how my train of thought always leads to me blaming myself. I always try to tell myself "screw that, I'm wonderful," but I don't know if I really believe that.
loffyglu: A portrait view of Alphonse Mucha's "Moët et Chandon" (Champagne White Star) (Moët et Chandon)
2014-02-02 06:14 pm
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MICA portfolio review + stuff

So on Friday I had a portfolio review at MICA (for those of you who don't know, I'm a college freshman, but I plan on transferring to a new school; for a lot of reasons, like location and program and such, MICA's my top choice). I only had about 10 or so pieces at the time, a few of which weren't even "finished," so I was very nervous (especially seeing the competition, oh geez... all these awesome painters and sculptors and some of them weren't even 17 yet maaaaaan), but...

It went super well! I've been told that admissions counselors at art schools tend to be brutally honest--like, if they think you aren't good enough to be at their school, from what I understand, they'll tell you straight up. That was what I was afraid would happen; since I don't have a lot of art background at the college level, having started as a pre-law student, she didn't seem to have any confidence in me at all (even warning me I wouldn't be as competitive as someone who's been dedicated to an art career for a longer period of time). Then she saw what I've actually done, and she said she was actually very impressed! She mentioned I'd probably be a very competitive candidate with my body of work. And MICA, from what I understand, is a verrrrrrrrry competitive school, so :,D (Hell, I don't know how much they have to fluff us up and everything she said could be bullshit for all I know, but I was so glad to hear I'm doing fine! She also gave me some genuinely really good advice on what I should and shouldn't include that I hadn't thought of before ;u; )

And I didn't even have to miss classes for it, since I don't have Friday classes this semester 8,D
loffyglu: Usagi from Sailor Moon laughing nervously. (Ahahaha... oops)
2014-01-26 04:43 pm
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Oh God so we just tried making mozzarella sticks for a snack and we were dumb and we fried them instead of baking them so now they're an explosion of breading and cheese and grease.

They taste fine (even if the cheese being literally everywhere took away some of the flavor) but lmao we kind of suck as Italians.
loffyglu: Usagi and Chibiusa from Sailor Moon hugging. (Hug)
2014-01-22 08:17 pm
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(Should probably find/make better mood icons, now that I think about it. Most of the ones I have on my hard drive are from fandoms I'm not even a part of anymore...)

Hate to start this account off with some depressing news, but...

trigger warning: death, cancer, dementia )
loffyglu: My face. (Default)
2014-01-20 09:45 pm
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Hey there.

Hello. I'm not too sure what's up with this site other than its interface seems pretty similar to LiveJournal's. Hopefully I'll become accustomed to everything and stick around!